I thought winning was everything.

My father used to always say before an exam (now that i am in ckp i dont have any), that its your responsibility to study, prepare, To Do you Job, and the results will be in gods hands. And for a long time , i believed that was true.. I believed that if you got bad marks, its because of your fault (most of the time), if you did something stupid when you were angry, it was your fault to lose your temper in the first place..but what happened today…man, seriously screwed up my mind.

..(still laughing at what happened)…okay, so here is the situation to what happened today in Jain College aka  SBJC (J.C Road)..

I participate in the western acoustic event. I wait patiently in the 200 seater conference hall for the event to begin. Coincidentally my name came up first.  I am not the nervous type, neither was i today. I confidently sat down, while the volunteers set up the mic system. Then one of them tell me that there is no mic stand and only a small one enough for the acoustic guitar. So i have 2 minutes to make a decision and decide to sing without a mic.  I speak up to the packed hall that i wont be using a mic and sing a trail song (Heart of Life)  to check whether they can hear me..

Then i start with my song, a cover of Free Falling by John Mayer. And honestly, i gave the best performance of my life and the applause at the end of the song was proof enough. To be completely honest, i was full of myself after that, i mean why shouldn’t i be? My main goal was not to disappoint myself and hear those dreaded words “Kenneth, you sang better during practice”..I wanted to sing the best i could and i did. The next performances that followed me all suffered the same problem, bad sound system. The vocals couldn’t be heard due to the poor mics..There were two performances that really gave me chills (sorry don’t remember the names). One was a friend of my classmate (She sang , while a guy with my future hairstyle accompanied her on the guitar)  and another was a girl who sang  “Summer” something ( a very Jazzy song). I cant possibly forget the gospel tamil singer who wailed his way into history and our very own Ricky Martin who kept referring to a certain “whore”. lol

It was just a matter of time before the results were announced. and i was tensed…and the fact that the judges were passing the results paper around didn’t help much. Finally the moment came…and WHAMMY!!!

I don’t get the first place (the fact that all the participants are staring at me in horror made me realize that it actually happened) , but the shock was who got it. Honestly, the two girls i mentioned earlier deserved it, if i was to get second.

DOUBLE WHAMMY!! I don’t get second place either (again, sitting at the last row where everyone looks at you in shock was making me really uncomfortable), and

TRIPLE WHAMMY!!! I don’t get the third place either..by now, the crowd (which has shrunk to 30%, mainly only the participants) goes crazy..As i get up to leave , what was really heartening that almost every particpate came over to me and congratulated me and told me how i deserved first place (wanted to thank you all at that moment for that, whoever you guys are, but i was still recovering from what happened)..

I walk out and go home. I couldn’t help it, but i was hurt.

Who wouldn’t be? People who have heard me sing, think that i am “naturally” good at singing. (Doesn’t mean i dont appreciate you guys tolerate my singing) , but they don’t know about the countless nights at home when my whole family is sleeping and i take my guitar and practice, practice for hours to get that song right, to do justice to that song. When i sing a song, i believe that i wrote every single word of it and its my job to make sure that the listeners feel, and understand the purpose of the song. When you literally put you heart and soul into something…and then dont get what you deserve..you can’t help but feel bad.

But like everything, this experience has taught me something. It made me ask myself, why i sing?

Today, 200 music lovers gave me first place, while two judges thought i don’t deserve anything.

I guess that makes me a winner

Our one day trip

Some people when they go for trips, they plan what clothes to bring, where to stop for food or where to fill fuel. But we are not some people, we are Ckp students. We went to Mekedatu a week ago (Arjun brought his Pimped out ride) along with Fattoo (aka Jiwani), Dilip and Abraham.

Basically all we planned about  was that we were going to swim and have some beers , turns out Abraham forgot his trunks (a huge battle with his mom) , Arjun was suffering from a hangover (brought some fried chicken with him) Dilip was waiting for 2 hours in petrol bunk with enough alcohol to run two trucks.

Somehow, we left (around noon..we planned to start by 7am). The journey was kicka**!  We took turns at driving while running over cattle and homeless people. We finally reached, and then realized that crossing the damn 3 feet river was going to cost us 40 rupees each! We crossed the river, and  Akshay didn’t even wait for a second to get naked (due to the presence of children, akshay kept his underwear on).  We all jumped into the lake and had a blast with the garbage thrown in the lakes and the strong currents.

After the swim was time for Fish Fry…yeah. I unfortunately suffered severe trauma after having a beer (ya, a single one).  Coming back home was even more fun because everyone except Arjun was drunk (note: Abraham and Akshay were high on imaginary crack)…Entering Bangalore was a fun experience since we were stuck in traffic for 3 hours(while listening to tamil versions of hindi songs).

Coming to the point, Abraham shot a lot of footage during the trip which he edited (While Arjun did the titles) and this whole pointless yapping was to give a build up to this video. Enjoy!

A new Logo

Well Bharath MC had asked me for a Kennymedia logo,and i wasn’t that happy with the current one, so i decided to make a new one. I cant call this the finalized version, but this is pretty much close to it..

After seeing this version, i was considering to make a complete 3D version of it.. But then again, that would become a very complex logo..maybe could use that in a animated version of this..

Tell me what you think.